Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Trip to hongkong:
Hongkong is such a beautiful place....glad that i chose it to be my first ever country visited....
i was pretty nervous when i board the plane as it was my first ever going abroad for holiday...or rather the first time i am on a plane.....heh...........
so confidently tinking that i would not spend much there, i brought oni $600 sing over...to my surprise, i actuali spent a total of $750 man!!!!!!!!!!!!!all my hardwork from tuition and parttime have gone to this trip already!bought a couple of clothes(happy tt they actuali have my size), apair of shorts, street name cardboard(sumting i longed for for a long time),disneyland boxes....and lotsa gifts for my fren....(YSW! me n xian shared sumthing for u for yr super belated present and a little sumting from me too!) actuali, i -pretty reluctant to come bk yet...so many things that i wished to do....take xiao ba, take public transport....wasnt too happy for the past daes and wanted to just sit the bus tour ard...but given $40 hk left, i dare not try anyting in case lose my way...kekekeke
went to ocean park...somewhere that i longed to visit ever since i was introduced to it through hk drama...heh...wasnt tt fantastic..but sumthing nice to test yr GUTS....i merely took a mild roller coaster and i surrendered.......................went the peak...its definitely a nice place for couples....(xian and jiahui lucky lo)went macau to have a feel of the king of gambler..................very crowded and rowdy....i dun like...but the place outside casinos is reali a nice place for couples or photo sluts...
took a few nice shots to capture the busy lifestlye and the places of interest in hk....funny enuff, when i was having a haircut there, the stylist asked me wads good in spore for them to go....my throat got stucked...I DUNO HOW TOI ANSWER TO THAT MAN!!!!!!spore reali doesnt have anything to explore coz its too developed le!!!!!!no peak,,,unless u consider bukit timah hill one?no nice view form cable car unless u consider mt faber as one?hahaha
who knows perhaps i mite migrate to hk one day...heh....but it is definitely one of the place i will visit again1!!!!!
talking about my trip...i am starting to pick things abt myself le...i realui tink i am a super ultra sensitive woman who loves to think alot...and make myself unhappy....perhaps one day, i will get you1 yu4 zheng4...sigh...i super ultra cant hide my expression from others...get moody easily which makes everyone shuns away from me....is this what iw ant?i dont want!!!!
things just happens and it makes me ponders....ponders coz it affects me and i am bothered by it...initially be4 the trip, i kept thinking that the group is split into 3, triplets, me and the rest and joncley alone...but after the trip, i cant but feel leftout...i feel tt i am wrong...they are one group, me and joncley one group ....my...i mm thinking to much?probably...or mabe i am right...they alwaz have so much to talk about...but i find tt i am rather quiet throughout the trip...mabe i have matured and upgrade to not taling so much or i reali dun feel like talking much le...
mabe sumtimes, it makes one not feeling so bad if one doesnt think tt much....i treasure frenship alot so i expect ple to res[ect the way i respect the freship?hmmm...duno la...forget it...even xian, my gd fren, i feel tt he hasnt been much patient when talking to me....gives me the feeling of he doesnt reali wana talk to me....but whenever he is with the triplets, things are different...perhaps things are reali different le....used to tell me stuff or whatever, now i feel like i duno anything and xy noes more than i do...talk abt things tt i dun even unerstand....mabe his gf's best fren bah...
things are already diff be4 i leave the hall le...anywya xian, i appreciates the things that u have done for me in the past...and i will alwaz remember that...hopefully this frenship will lasty with YSW ard bah...
last nite, i had a chat with serene, she asked if i started talking to wh anot...hmmm....did i? probably bah............but the moment we talked , we will get heated up easily....just becoz of a cadfare?he wans it his way and i suggested another way, he immediately gave a very fedup response to jieling....since tt day, i did not talk to him till tt day, he coulden find anyone else to give comments on his outfit , he approached me.............since then, we din talk at all...even if he asked questions, its aso very stranger kind of tone................i tot to myself, why is this happening to our frenship?dindt we used to laugh and share wadever things together?mabe i was the one who spoilt this frenship of ours bah....eversince the day, u told me tt i shlden noe so much things about u...i started pulling myself frm all of u...used to know whats hapening ard u , what problems u have u will cum to me till now.....dun even noe a single thing abt u at all......i wld reali like and intersted to noe but.....................i suddenly forgot hw i used to talk to u....used to joke with u....perhaps., the triplets noes more abt u then i do now...i observed and i realised that now xy probably is playing my role...u have things u will approach her....ok ...tts ok...its alwaz through her or jieling tt i learnt new things happening ard u...i feel tt i am nt updated....i feel leftout!!!!!!!
the thing i am sad abt is, in the past, seeing such a stituation betwn our frenship, u will try to start off with sumthing or atleast findout wads happening....but now?cant be bothered...and y do i have to botherpassing u things or look for u just be4 the trip to talk abt hw i felt....does telling u all these make any difference?NO!noting have changed or was done..."i dont wana do things for the sake of doing"(qouted from u)does tt mean tt what u ued to do are all for the sake of doing...and it doesnt mean anything to u?i have tried my best or even wanted to create some conversation but...................it makes me feeel tt mabe i shlden try so hard or even care abt it when others dun even feel the same or give a shit to it!
mabe i used to think too highly towards such a valuable frenshiop...i am actuali highly confidet tt we will remain good frens forever til mabe very very long...coz u are the oni good fren whom i will share everything with and i noe everything abt..howeverit is actuali super vulnerable...as long as u have company nuting matters to u....i am just a fren who is conveniently there for all of u bah...perhaps, it will just be like any other hi bye fren bah....mabe its just a frenship i shlden fell bothered...but i can say tt i am super affected by it....thinking tt i am losing this good GREAT fren,,,i feel super sad....things just cant get bk to what it used to be....i lost the ability to talk to u le...perhaps u can get a new frenship with some other ple bah....
hopefully things willl get better....i am going to give it a last try ...after tt, i can say tt i dont mind losing u this fren coz i still have many ard...............
