havent been blogging for a few mths le....frens bugged me....begged me....hahaha...no la...
have been busy with my command...practise till we ehours....sumtimes others may think, " u r focuising on the wrong thing man!!!!"
mabe, but all i wan is to put up a good show for everyone and make myself busier so that i will not do silly things like, irritating ple?hah!
ok...recently, i have been keeping to myself....probably its becoz of the incident that happened between me n my hall frens bah....is it wrong to tink tt u wana spend more time with yr frens coz u are leaving soon?mabe ple dun tink it tt way.....i care for them but sometimes they tink tt i am too kpo....have they ever spared a tot for me at all?i tink alot first then i tried to help my frens be4 they can see it....but they may take it as i am kpo-ing them n causing disrupt to their private lives.....mabe sumtimes human shld nt try to be too good to others.....not tt i am saying tt i am a saint but......this made me realised something.....dun do things with the hope of receiving something..wad u tink , ple may not tink it the way u want it to be....as long as u are happy, whether or not there is appreciation it doesnt matter....

Actuali, recently i felt sad....i duno y things aint as good as before....i used to be happy whenever i am with my frens and enjoy being with them but now....................................i am hardly happy....i dunno y , probably its becoz of myself....i keep having the tot that they dun enjoy toking to me....the look, the expression.....haiz.....probably, like they say, i am TOO SENSITIVE>>....
last time, i will have frens eating brkfast with me...now?up and alone, seeing ple eating together but nv include me.....lunch aso hardly eat with my usual kakee....i noe everyone is busy....but sumtimes i just feel left out.....
Recently, i dun feel good talking to my buddy....my used to be very good with me-brother....everytime i see him, he seems so not close to me le....the first time i have difficuklty talking to him...words just cant come out tt easily for me le....he appears to look sian diao when i talk to him.....i din even wana step into his room!!!!!!!!!talk to him, he needs 5mins to reply what i asked him face to face....m i so bu hao jiang hua? now i feel tt my this bro i shappier with the triplets, and they noe more of him than i do now......wad is happening man,.....now this bro dun even bother to wen(4) hou(4) abit or even come n look for me lo.....things just got worse each day....or rather day by day....
i reeali wish to keep this frenship of ours as it is almost impossible to find a fren who noes u tt well or rather understands u......but my feeling tells me tt i am gonna lose this fren......the moment i step out of hall.....(hope it wont happen) but its tired to be the only one trying to do something abt it when ple mite not even one????
nvm, i shall just focus on my own things and do wad eva tt makes me happy bah!!!!!!!perhaps, u may not even be the fren who will stay with me foreva!
however, i hope i can maintain my frenships with alll the frens i hav enow....i am contented....
there are just some ple who are worth it and some who dont!

things and thoughts that i don't really say it out

cheerful.always sensitive.always hope to be carefreetreasure frenships alot.pessimistic at times.

.....Just be HAPPY and you will be HAPPY....

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