we had the mooncake celebration last monday...it was quite fun...was damn tiring for me as i was the blk com of my blk...had to run errands and setup the whole area to make sure it pleasures the blkers....
Yesterday, wenta ikea to grab a gift for her...though my heart tells me not to but i cant ctrl myself but to get sumting decent for her...got a clip for her, got sum fotos frm her blker and printed it out as a card for her...decorated the clip in a nice way which i myself liked it too.
i even took the effort to go to her rm, lit up 2 candles n left the present on her desk so that the moment she cums in, she wld catch the ambience in her rm....
after tt, i wenta watch tv in his rm....had edwin to kee me company...soon, he was bk...edwin left the rm for sumting....i was left alone in the room...as usual, the moment he came in, his face was damn blk la...as if i owe him sumting....bang his doors this n that...i abit cant stand it man...
to my surprise, the moment he stepped out of his rm, he was out luffing with edwin etc.
m i tt annoying that u cant even gie me a smile upon seeing me?i was really damn sad...i juz wanted to watch sum tv..mabe tok to him abt a thing or two...suddenly i feel tt i dun reali noe him tt well afterall...mbe sumone is doing a better job....i juz dun like ple saying," u noe him so well u all so shou..."r we?at least for sum time i find i dun noe him at all...he no longer toks to me....cant be bothered to listen to my problems....providing useless comment wheneva u have a qns to solve..even a normal fren whom i dun reali noe will provide a much better ans den his....
nt even 1 min for me to pour my woes to...wad the hell!!!!u can travel all the way to her rm juz to listen to her same old topic..." i cant play well, i m demoralised., i am stressed"
halo, yr blk ple die le meh?or isit my blk ple are better counsellor?wad r u trying to prove?thoug my sista, but i tink i aso duno u....keep on lying n lying to me....wad do u wan to do?do you noe tt it is making me more miserable than ever!!!!!i am a sensitive ger....mind u!!!!!!i noe u r super good wif guys...so??!??!?!?!?!?!?!say this but doing that...i hate hypocrites!!!!n liars!!!!!
u dun wana smile is ok....after tt, i left part of my supper on his desk {chicken wing}...was damn sad to c it still lying on his desk when i wenta his rm to find kt yesterday...ok...this time i noe i shld do sumting...he cant even treat me like a normal fren...y shld i be doing allt hese...puifun was rite....mabe i shld juz leave him alone for sumtime to allow him to 4get abt everything and HOPEFULLY we can start afresh as hw we initially started nowing each other...it may sound positive but i have a feeling tt if u dun tok for like a few week or 1 mth, everything will be diff....things will nt be the same..we are back to super normal fren instead of hw good we used to be....I DUN WAN!!!!or mabe sumting worse will happen...we will nt even tok for months?i realli duno wad will happen...
u may think tt i m tinking too much but isnt tt wad one will think wen it happens to u too???!!!???!!!??
i started my first move by shifting tv in my rm now...this is my very first step to avoid him...there will be no more reason for me to visit him from nw on...sigh....i hope i can do it....I CAN!!!!!
**********starting my life afresh************************************

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cheerful.always sensitive.always hope to be carefreetreasure frenships alot.pessimistic at times.

.....Just be HAPPY and you will be HAPPY....

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