hmm...i noe i noe tt i may be stupid to think all those silly gu gu tingy man...wad to do...ok..my blog is abit long but i dun care..juz wana let it out....
ok...again...i coulden tie up my legs n hands n i went to visit him again...went pretty earli at ard 11am..went physio wif him...hurts abit wen seeing him screaming while the therapist helped him wif his leg..it looked damn painful man...wished i could have helped him to ease the pain by a little bit man...bought lunch for him after tt n fed him as usual...tis time, we chatted alot more than the other time wif so mani ple ard....
it took me alot of courage to ask him abt wenn...yes...she broke up wif her bf over vin...juz as wad dida dey all expected...guess wad she told the boy," i will care for him alwaz" which is to say tt even though she is wif her new beau, she will alwaz care abt vin...which is = SHE DUN LURVE her bf at all....he is juz a substitute...hmm...heard frm vin tt tis guy " chen xu er ru " btwn he n wenn...she chose him one mth after their breakup...nw...its the other way round....vin " chen xu er ru" but in a super diff way...his pitifulness moved her...heez...she sacrificed her time to accompany him everyday...which TOUCHED him la...shit man...i was abt to tell him tt i can do tt to...but situation doesnt allow me to do tt...{ credit to dida for predicting the plot so well} but too bad...the one who touched him is her not ME...it was exactly like wad dida said...but its not done by me...in the end, i expressed the idea to him in a diff wae...
At first i tot....tts it man!they will be 2gether...one acted fast, one touched...really two hands clapping man...he showed me her msg saying veri chim stuff...most impt pt is tt she still lurves him...sigh...
wad was shocking to me most was tt vin likes daphane too...i tout its in the past alreadi...but surprisingly, he courted her man...dated her once...n sounded her alreadi...but she had a 4yrs bf...same...feelings faded also...she msg him b4 she was on board for holi...saying tt she will give him a surprise wen she cums bk..."would it be tt she broke off wif bf n is ready for vin?" tt puzzles both me n vin...he is now caught between these 2 women.....n yes...it again will nv involve me man...i m alwaz the neglected one...unimportant one...unknown one...unneeded one...yes yes yes....finali i accepted it...nutin i can do to make myself known...i can be veri frank to others but in front of him...i m totally helpless.....
n now he doesnt noe who he likes best...hmm...i guess his feelings to wenn is more of gratitude rather than luv...it wld have fade awae ler...the prob btwn dem will still be dre...as for daphane...i tink its kinda of new excitement for him bah...a ger whom he has alwaz biooo in lectures..:>
like wad vreniz said...i shld juz nt think abt it...yes i noe...all these trobles tt i m giving myself its all created by myself...nutin actuali happens or will happen tt makes me so miserable...its all by me...i m the cause for all my trobles...but...i juz cant get it off...i m a sucker for pain man...think on sumtin tt wun even be tot of happening...making myself so bad...its not as if i m out of lurve after i told him abt it...i m alreadi a loser even be4 i tell him n kana rejected...sigh..its juz nv me.......wad is tis man....wads life..i reali duno...one lives to torture oneself?i reali duno..now i can oni." chang yna huan siao bah"
hope time will fade everything, i will be busy wif all things, busy wif frens and all...juz not busy wif wishful n tots tt are nt achievable at all.....i wana RELIVE!!!!!!!

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cheerful.always sensitive.always hope to be carefreetreasure frenships alot.pessimistic at times.

.....Just be HAPPY and you will be HAPPY....

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